As I sat there at the table I couldn’t keep the tears from flowing down my cheeks. My friend sat across the table as I explained the trials of the last few months and how they had left me broken; broken beyond repair. My heart just couldn’t contain the brokenness that I was feeling.
I felt used, worthless, broken, hurt, and confused. Here I thought I was following the Lord’s plan for my life but yet the road that I was traveling down had more heartache than I had been prepared for. I would walk through what I thought was an open door only to have it all fall apart
How could I have failed to see this coming? Now, here I was in the same place I had been before trying to pick up all the pieces of my shattered heart with my emotions raging like the storm I felt inside. Just when I thought I was over all the hurt and the brokenness, it would come again sweeping like a tidal wave back over me. All the feelings would come rushing back. I thought I would never be over all the brokenness I was experiencing.
You Are Never Too Broken
You are never too broken that Christ cannot fix you and make you whole again! I wish it were always as easy as that sounds though. Brokenness takes time to heal, and you have to be willing to allow the Lord to heal you. You brokenness may be different than mine. Relationships have played a huge part in the brokenness that I have experienced but so have the different seasons of spiritual warfare that left me dry, empty, and broken, or the times when I have felt lonely or the seasons without friends that seem like forever. And so, you start thinking that it must be the brokenness that playing a part in that.
Darling, you are never too broken to be used. Your brokenness is part of His story in your life. What the devil intended for evil, the Lord can use for good! Your life is part of His story; every single seasons that He takes you through.
When Your Brokenness Defines You
God never allows you to be broken beyond repair. You may feel like your whole world is coming crashing down around you. Through my times of brokenness, I had to trust the Lord had it all under control because that was the only glue holding my heart from shattering once again.
It is easy to allow your brokenness to define you. To hide behind all the tears and emotions and to stay there forever. Because it sometimes seems like it will never end. But one thing that I have learned is that your brokenness will never define you! Christ is the only definition in your life- the only One who can define who you are!
Jesus died for all of you! Brokenness and all. We are not called to come to Him when we are perfect or to fix ourselves up beforehand. Instead, we are to come to Him just as we are so that He can make us whole, and wash away our brokenness. When He died, He laid it all on the cross, every single sin to be wiped away and for you to trade your robe of crimson for His gown of righteousness.
Keeping Your Eyes Focused On Him
Sometimes God has to take us through heart-wrenching seasons of brokenness so that we realize our need for Him. If life were always perfect, then my need for God would be small. The times in my life when I have grown the most in my walk and relied the most upon my Father are the times when nothing was going right in my life and when I was broken beyond repair. I had to rely on the Lord all the more during these times because He was all that I had and He was my ultimate source of strength and comfort.
“Keep your eyes six feet and above” is a saying that my pastor likes to use. When we keep our eyes focused on the needs of our problems, then our God suddenly seems small and like He cannot handle it. However, when we keep our eyes six feet and above with them fixed on Jesus’ face, then suddenly our problems take a backseat and God becomes huge in the midst of the chaos in our lives.
Darling, keep your eyes focused on Jesus and He will become bigger than the brokenness that is currently defining you. He will become the one who will heal every broken piece of your life and make you whole again. Darling, trust that He is in control. Trust that God is capable of taking your brokenness and trading it for His glorious story. Darling, don’t give up but allow Him to fully use your season of brokenness and don’t allow it to define you any longer. He loves you.
“The Lord is near to those who have a broken heart, and saves such as have a contrite spirit.” –Psalm 34:18